my fear of the Lord personal study

Remember a few posts back when I said I was gonna do that study? Well, I have. I was hoping to delve much more into individual but with hubby being gone around 80 hours a week, I am really taking care of the kids and household by myself, so I just don’t have the time. That is sad to me.

Here is what I believe is the bottom line of what I have learned: I looked up Psalm 111:10 in my New King James Personal Study Bible (by Thomas Nelson Publishers) and here is what it said: v10 The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom; A good understanding have all those who do His commandments. His praise endures forever. I have footnotes that coincide with each verse and they say fear of the LORD: This phrase is used in the OT to designate true religion. That is, a life which expresses its accountability to God. This awareness of accountability to God is seen as the foundation of wisdom. See “The Fear of the Lord” at Gen. 20:11. So in Genesis 20:11 we read (v11) And Abraham said, “Because I thought, surely the fear of God is not in this place; and they will kill me on account of my wife. Then below in the footnotes area there is a grey box that’s the “focus” area which says: The OT has no word for religion. This is probably so because for the OT people all of life was religion. But the phrases the fear of God or the fear of the Lord come close to expressing what we mean by the term religion. It reflects a life-style which always takes into account that there is an all-wise, all-powerful, all-righteous God who holds people accountable for their behavior. To act sinfully is to act as though God is either too weak, too ignorant, or too inconsistent to enforce His will. To live in loving fellowship with God is possible only for those who “fear” Him.
That really about sums up this study for me. I miss doing that with my husband. We used to spend a few hours a day sudying the Bible when we were dating -- (I was working 40 hrs a week and he was laid up and we had no kids. Sometimes I really think "those were the days".) Maybe some day I can come back and reopen this study. That would be cool. I feel a peace about ending it now, though. And it has raised my awareness of the things that I do read, and I am slowly learning to filter more of what goes across the tickertape of my mind.
Those of you wishing to know more about what I found can contact me via email at: seeker_4_christ@yahoo.com.

Save your Money

Just a quick note: Save your money. Don't buy that Clorox Anywhere Hard Surface Cleaner. Pretty periwinkle blue bottle, but after purchasing and comparing to my large bottle of bleach at home, I'm quite certain it's just bleachwater in a fancy spray bottle. It was between $2 and $3 and I at first thought I was getting a good deal. I like it, but I could've made it myself much cheaper. I think those Clorox wipes are much better -- handy, although expensive. Just a heads up! ;)

Ooops!

I apologize for forgetting to update about DS#1. I talked with my mom and family members about it and forgot about my blog friends :( sorry! Anyways, the test results came last Thursday and he was put on Zantac twice a day as they believe that he has acid reflux. Poor lil guy! I'm glad that's all it is though. They tested and searched for many other more serious, life changing things (a bunch of things I cannot remember/pronounce) and it was none of them. Thank you and praise you Jesus! We have a follow up appointment in about a month to discuss if the Zantac is working. So far, it is. The last time he threw up was about July 13th or 14th. It has been over a month! Wow! But he's only been on the medicine since last Thursday.

My Lil' Guy

**UPDATE** Yesterday was the two scopes. Upper and lower. Doctor said there was nothing to cause major concern. Upper showed possibility of acid reflux, and the lower showed some signs of redness but was thought to be caused by the scope itself. No colitis, or Chrohns (sp?) Disease. Nothing abnormal or out of the ordinary. He did take some small tissue samples with a tiny brush and swabbed some different areas. They are testing for flu-like bugs that he maybe hasn't fought off that are hanging around. Those results will come back in 4-5 days at which point they will call me and discuss what meds to put him on and for how long. They will be giving him something for the reflux, but they want to know more of what they are dealing with first. We praise you Lord Jesus that You are the divine Healer! Thank you that my little boy has nothing major wrong! Do you all know how many times I myself have wanted to shrink and crawl into DS body just to try to help? It is an awful feeling to have your baby sick and not be able to make it go away or know what is causing it to avoid those certain things. It is miserable. Not to mention how the child must feel. Took awhile to get the procedure started. The other child that was there was picked up by the nurses and carried to the OR, but they said my DS looked so comfy they just wheeled the gurney he was lying on and took him that way. Let me tell you that was a God thing!!! Right now, DS doesn't like being taken away from his "mom-mom". It's not really a separation anxiety (at least at this point) but he just really likes to stick close to me. So for him to go with strangers and to be carried away by them would've been a lot worse. See, we had just made him a "nest" out of the warm blanket they brought him and his "fafa" (favorite blanky he goes NOWHERE without!) and a big fluffy pillow and his "fuzzy puppy" stuffed toy. He was chillin. I did well, too. But I will say that as he was being wheeled away and I was walking the other direction there was a moment of sadness in which I almost lost it and ran back blubbering, but right at that moment, the Holy Spirit calmed my nerves and said "I am with you. I am with him. Everything will be fine. Trust Me." And that's what I did. I didn't pray the whole time. I didn't feel like I needed to. In fact, I forgot to ask for prayer in church on Sunday, and I forgot all week to call my pastor! But it wasn't that I didn't want them to know or anything, I would lift up the procedure in prayer each time it came to mind during the week, and trust and know that God was in the midst of it, and then I would leave it at the throne. Isn't that what casting our cares on the Lord is all about? Sure, it surfaced in my mind occasionally, but not near to the magnitude as most things worry me. And each time I prayed, I felt an amazing amount of peace. Then I would forget to worry. Most previous times, I would worry then pray, then go right back to worrying again. I know that the Holy Spirit is moving over my life right now. I have gone back several times to my blog entry of what God is speaking to me and read it to myself. To remind myself both of what God said and what I am suppose to be doing and not doing. It is so hard to not read things other than what God told me to! Let me tell you: I LOVE to read!!!!! I will read anything news online, watch CNN's ticker tape, or occasionally MSN ticker tape to get caught up with what's going on in the world, but I read billboards, signs, even things like street signs I know what street they are. I am a reader of everything. But you know what? I realized I also read things like Hollywood gossip both on the opening page when I get online and in the checkout line of the grocery store. I never pick it up, but I still read. Its like my brain says "oh look there's some words." and that thought is instantaneous and I just read it without thinking what it is I'm looking at. I need to create a conscious, huge filter when I leave the house. But also about the Holy Spirit moving; I recently had a pretty long conversation via IM with a friend who is really searching for Christ. It was wonderful! I was able to answer most questions for her and had some help. (Thanks mom! The Lord will bless you for your willingness to be available to me on a moment's notice! :) ) I kept praying over the conversation. There was a definite spiritual battle as Satan was trying to get me to take the credit and I was not accepting, and Satan was trying to get me to admit defeat, which I did NOT do. There was warfare done during said conversation, as well as praise and Thanksgiving to God for using me! I am thirsty to learn more and be used more in this way! It was so awesome to see God woven through the conversation. Hallelujah!